Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
1. It's spring. This is what I love. Warm weather and front yard playing. Packy is quite the tag player. What he lacks in speed he makes up for in determination. Look at that face. He is seizing the moment he spots her with her back turned.
2. According to my sister, I am in full house obsession mode. I don't think so. I mean maybe I am, but can you blame me? I am moving and I want to paint every room before we move in. I am color challenged. My current house is white. As in we painted every single interior room and hall white (kitchen, bedrooms, bathroom, everything). It's been like this for a few years so color is new to me. I love my all white house and alot of my new house will be white too. It's so fresh and clean. I am trying to only do things at the new house that I LOVE, not things that will do.
3. I wanted a church pew for my mudroom so I started looking on eBay. Jason mentioned that he thought his parents had one so I inquired. They did. They have one that was Jason's grandparent's from their church. When the church was remodeled they sold the pews to the members. This was their actual pew that they sat in. His grandparents died a few years after we got married. Since Jason's parents weren't using it, it lives at my new house now. I love furniture that has meaning. Since most of my furniture is a hand me down from somebody, it has a story.
4. More pictures.
6. Is anyone else overwhelmed with the switching the clothes for the kids because it's officially a new season job? It is rough over here. I was happy to figure out that because of my sweet friends who hand down clothes that Jay is the only one who really needs anything. Yea!
8.Keeping it light this week right? Well I did learn a lesson this week but it's a little too personal to put out there for the world. I did have to use some tools....spiritual and sobriety. Anxiety is a beast but I ran it to the ground with the help of Keisha and Rihanna via my iPod.
9. Jason is not really a "fix it" guy but he is one heck of a painter. Let me just take this opportunity to thank him. He agreed to paint every room in our new house, not because it needed to be painted, but so I could make it my own. I love that man (who is painting right now at 9:43 pm).
10. I leaned on a few of you pretty hard this week. Thank you for holding me up. Someone suggested adding to my prayers to receive my validation from Christ and not people or things. I have prayed this for my children for years, that they would not look to their friends for security, but to their maker. Sometimes we just need to be reminded.
(This week is dedicated to Keena, David Mac, and Dana the birthday girl. No reason other than it's my blog, I saw all of you today, and cuz I want to.)
Friday, March 11, 2011
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
2. This has been a hard Jay week. Nothing specific, just tough. It is really hard to focus on development and not the immediate end result. I want to explain something to him and him to get it. After a few minutes of explaining something I feel is really serious, he looks at me and asks if I want to play Mad Libs. No, I don't want to play! I want you to get what I am telling you. How can I expect him to get it when it took me forever to? Pray, pray, pray. And then pray some more.
3. New York living. It's a bit of a hassle. You (meaning Betsy, since that is my reference point), do tend to stay in your neighborhood. She lives on the west side, meaning west of Central Park. Her school, grocery store, and anything else she needs are within walking distance. She goes to BSF on the east side so she usually takes a cab. The grocery stores are funny. Funny to me. They are small and crowded. Trader Joe's is awesome but when I went, it was cart-to-cart traffic. The next problem is getting the groceries home. Cab? Stuff it all in the basket of your stroller? Bus? She can only buy for a couple of days because her kitchen is too small to stock up for the week. Lucky for Betsy, her husband likes to grocery shop and she can get all of her essentials at Duane Reade (drug store). Essentials like cake mix to hide in the back of her cabinets (until her sister comes, finds it, and eats it all).
4. Charlie Sheen. I can't stop watching. He is so sick. At first it made me laugh and Packy and I still like to say "Duh, winning" but it is really so sad. Sad, that when you are in your disease you can't see it but everyone else can. Sad, that he really believes the things he is saying. Sad, that he has children and they will suffer too. Been there. Done that. Happy to be in recovery (and also happy that my crazy wasn't on the news).
5. I ordered my new camera. Super duper excited. For real. Expect big things. Maybe even pictures posted on days other than Tuesday!
6. I really enjoyed this post on the Creative Mama (the first half). How many of us "lose" ourselves in our 30's? We start being defined by our roles and lose our core. We try to be who we think people want us to be, or be like people we think we should be like. It is exhausting trying to be other people. I am happy to be comfortable today with me, just as I am.
7. Lately I have been very encouraged by other women. I know I have said that before but I forget how important connecting with other women is to my life. Someone at the gym really made me feel better with just a quick comment when I was really stressing about Jay. Nothing earth shattering. Just a quick word of encouragement from someone who understands a child that takes more effort than the "regular" (ha ha) child. That really helped. I want to be aware of situations where God can use me to encourage others.
8. How cute is this? Another friend from the gym gave me this to take to my new house. I was actually thinking about how I was going to transition from my birdhouse to the new house. I even thought about changing the name of my blog. Now I don't have to. I can take my birdhouse with me. How thoughtful!
10. Still trying to be aware. Praying for awareness. Where is God trying to use me in a big way, or a small way? He uses us. We just have to be aware.
Friday, March 4, 2011
If you only knew how many times I have pulled up this site and thought I just can't do it right now. I got back Friday and jumped right into my life and haven't stopped. I am really tired. Jason was questioning my 8:30 bedtime last night. Like, really tired. We bought a house this week, Emory turned 8, and everything else in between. Tomorrow, I will rest. And the kids will probably watch lots of TV and play lots of wii.
1. That is Josie holding Lolly's foot in the picture above. See how she is squeezing her just a tad too hard? Poor Josie. She adjusting to the new person in her life. I took most of the pictures that I tagged on to my FB page. Thank goodness Betsy has a camera since I am camera sad. I think I might order my new one today. I have felt really naked without my camera.
2. I HATE how when I leave my kids they are perfect and when I get home they revert back. I know this is a mom thing but it stinks! Jason said they really didn't whine or fight while I was gone. My mom said the same thing about the beach. I wasn't home an hour before all of those things were back in play. I haven't prayed for patience so I don't know what God is trying to teach me.
4. I did pray something very specific for Betsy's delivery, along with many other women, and He answered our prayers. I had to remind myself that it didn't just happen because her delivery was different this time, or she just pushed differently, it happened because we prayed and God answered our prayers. I think that sometimes when I pray specifically and then he answers, I often give the credit to circumstance and not Him. Not on purpose, I just don't think about it because the situation is resolved. I have to be aware of how God has answered prayers in my life so I can give Him the praise and glory and gratitiude that He deserves.
5. Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us... Ephesians 3:20
This was Jay's memory verse for last week. I love the "more than we ask or imagine". So many times I think I know what I need but He has a plan that is even more that I can imagine. I still have overwhelming gratitude for God's timing and this new house. If I had gotten my way, we would have sold our house last year and since we couldn't find what we wanted, I was willing to move to an apartment. Instead, God waited a year, sold it without it being for sale, and allowed us to buy a house that has everything I have ever wanted and more. The sooner I live everyday looking to Him for the plan and not myself the sooner I will have peace.
6. One thing I have learned is being aware (taught to me by a wise city woman). Sometimes I stress over spending individual time with each of my children and make it into a big thing, like a date night. This usually ends in a fight because they see it as what are you going to buy me time. If I am aware then I can steal individual time that just happens and make the most of it. If Jay wants me to watch him play his DS while Emory is at tumbling then that is individual time that I am affirming him (I absolutely hate watching them play video games, except Just Dance, because I like to play that one) or if Packy wants to play trains while the kids are school then I should get down on the floor and play. You might not have to teach yourself this but I am a "non-playing" mom so I have to think about it. That is just one thing along the lines of being aware. I'll tell you some more later.
I think I will end on that note. It is Friday and I am going to see the Justin Beiber movie later this afternoon. I am going to work on my thoughts from New York so maybe I can make that Tuesday's ten. Any questions? Anything?