Tuesday, January 31, 2012
2. Speaking of my Dad, and my Mom, and their dog Tate, they just got back to town today. They have been in New York since January 4th. I didn't want to tell you in case you read this blog and happen to be a burglar. (And yes, they took the dog. My Dad could not leave his beloved son for a month.) The rented an apartment about a block away from Betsy and lived as New Yorkers. They walked Hattie to PS166 (her school), took Josie to her pre-school, and babysat Lolly so Betsy could go to Target. They ate amazing food and saw some amazing shows. Papa (my Dad) took Tate to the dog park and let him sniff all of the New York City dogs. They had a great time as New Yorkers and as grandparents of NYC children. I was happy that Betsy had them for a month but I am more happy they are home.
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
1. Sorry about last week. I was knee deep in some throw up. Not mine. My two youngest were hit with the bug and it was awful. It's been a long time since I was up all night rubbing backs in the bathroom. And washing sheets until there are no more and people have to sleep in sleeping bags. Jason and I make an excellent HAZMAT team. I take the kid and clean them and he takes everything they left behind. I am physically unable to do that job. This was a deal we made when we got married. I don't do throw up or roaches. (I later added rats to that list but thankfully that is in the past. We moved remember?) (I really don't understand why the stomach bug takes effect at night? Why not during the day?)
2. I will have to say that Packy is the cutest puker. He sat on his little stool in front of the potty and could not have been any sweeter. I really wanted to take a picture but I didn't want to leave him. While I was rubbing his back he said, "Mama, could you just lightly scratch my back instead or rubbing?" I did. And then I told him his wife was going to hate me one day. Totally rotten.
3. Last Saturday afternoon I was looking at my garage that is filled with stuff from the storage unit my parents unloaded. I was really sick of looking at it. I came inside and put a notice on Craigslist. AFTERNOON YARD SALE NOW (2pm)-DARK. I didn't price anything. I didn't even wait in the garage. People came within 30 minutes of posting it. I made $150 and now have less junk in my garage. Yard sale people can not
turn down a sale. They have to come and they always find something.
4. Have you heard about PostalPix? It's a free app that prints the pictures from your iPhone. All those little pictures trapped. I haven't used it yet but it looks really cool. I actually have not printed pictures in way too long. Like maybe a couple of years.
5. I have read 3 books this January. (Why do I forget how much I enjoy reading?) I read Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close and then I went to see the movie on Sunday (by myself on a dreary day). Yes, I am one of those people who will say the book is better. The book is almost always better. The movie can be as good, but never better. That said, I can enjoy the movie and appreciate the things that they changed (and maybe feel a little superior because I know the characters in a deeper way).
6. Everyone has a story inside them. I think that's why we enjoy reading and watching movies. We get to see other people's stories. Speaker meetings at AA are some of my favorite meetings because I get to hear someone else's story. God writes our story and I think he puts something inside us that make us want to share it. Sometimes I feel like I am bursting with story.
7. I have heard from so many people that are enjoying the Run to Him study. It's so good to do a Bible study that involves just the Bible and you studying it, right? So last week we studied Psalm 1. One verse really impacted me.
Blessed is the man
who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked
or stand in the way of sinners
or sit in the seat of mockers.
Walk, stand, sit. The progression of sin. You don't just wake up one day in full on rebellion to God. You ease in to it. First you walk around it, then you linger around a little longer, and then you decide to sit down and make it home. This really made me think about the "little" sins that I might not think are a big deal. The "pet" sins, to quote my Bible study teacher of many years, Mrs. Cindy.
Compromise slowly progresses to full on rebellion.
Katie Orr from Do Not Depart blog
8. Our Sunday School started reading the Tim Chester book, You Can Change. I like this book because it is set up to be interactive. You are supposed to pick something specific in your life that you would like to change and work through it as you read. I am not going to tell you what I picked, at least not today, but this line from the book really stuck out to me.
God can't love you more than he does now, no matter how much you change your life.
And God won't love you less than he does now, no matter what a mess you make of your life.
'God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us" (Romans 5:8).
9. Sooner or later, anything you run from will have to be dealt with. Joyce Meyer
As a former runner of anything hard or uncomfortable, I know this is so true. You can stuff and stuff and stuff and then one day you will explode. Bury it as far as you want, I promise it will come up. I don't like uncomfortable. I like comfortable. But I have learned that walking through the uncomfortable is much easier than trying to push it aside. It might suck while you are in it, but then it's over. Stuff it and it's still there.
10. Back to the throw up. While I was lightly scratching Packy's back at 1:30am, I thought, "I should go get my book and read. Or I should get my phone and check whatever it is I check". Then I thought I would be present in the moment. I took a class for 3 weeks on mindfulness as part of my treatment at Talbott. I thought it was stupid at the time. Now I practice it as often as I remember to. So I didn't leave Packy and I was just present. I wasn't electronically distracted. I wasn't trying to read someone else's story. I was just a part of a story. The Packy and his puke story. And it was special. And I am not kidding. (In case you were wondering, I did help Emory too. On her night, I rubbed her back but she was more of the puke and go back to sleep kind of girl.)
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
In peace I will lie down and sleep,
for you alone, LORD
make me dwell in safety.
I read this verse to Jay when he woke up and he got a big smile on his sleepy face. I told him to copy it onto an index card and it sits, propped up where he can read it, on his bedside table. Now, he is still having trouble sleeping, but he knows that God cares about his sleep. (His word is living and active. Hebrews 4:12)
7. This is Pac telling me he is keeping his eye on me.
Friday, January 6, 2012
1. I love this picture. Guess who got up early and who we had to wake up? We make them wait on the stairs so Daddy can check to see if Santa came (AKA make some coffee).
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
1. Christmas was so fun. We had guests! We have never had company stay with us in our 15 (almost) years of marriage (because I am not counting the people that crashed at our apartment in Atlanta after shows). Betsy and Lee and the girls drove from NYC and my sweet Mom agreed to let them stay with us. It gave us so much more hanging out time. More time for the kids to just be together. And more time for me to hold my sweetest baby Lolly. (She is so sweet.) We didn't do anything super exciting or creative. (I write that because I had a moment of guilt when I saw people on Facebook doing lots of fun things. I talked to myself and decided I wouldn't change a thing.) We were just together. Perfect.
2. The week before she got here my Mom and I worked really hard on the Birdhouse. We were getting ready for Christmas Eve at my house. All of my Mom's side of the family. This group has not been all together at the same place in a long time. It was so fun. We laughed, ate Fresh Air BBQ, opened presents and got to know new babies. And of course we took a crazy picture.
4. This Christmas my heart broke at different times as I thought about people in my life. People who would be spending their first Christmas without their spouse, without their parent, without their child. People who were figuring out how to do Christmas as a single parent or a co-parent. People who were hoping for forgiveness from family members. People watching part of their family break up and knowing there is nothing they can do to stop it. People who were spending their very first Christmas sober. It can be so hard. And then I watched as people in my life were filled with joy. People that started to mend broken relationships. My cousin and his girlfriend announced their engagement. And the most exciting news, I have two friends who have each been wanting a baby for a long time. Each girl got the call that they would receive a baby in 2012. They are both getting boys. It makes my heart smile to think that they are going to give a sweet baby boy a life that he would otherwise not have had. Love you Tarsha and Chandra. So excited that your families are growing this year.
5. Today is the last day of vacation. I took the kids to see We Bought a Zoo. I cried through the entire thing. (A few too many curse words for a PG movie in my opinion.) It was so sweet and funny.
Sometimes all you need is 20 seconds of insane courage, of embarrassing bravery, and something great will come of it. Benjamin Mee/We Bought A Zoo6. I don't make New Year's resolutions. I used to do it every year. #1 Quit smoking. #2 Exercise at least 3 times a week. I quit smoking 2 and a half years ago, and I have been exercising at least 3 times a week for over a year and a half. With those out of the way I like to see New Year's as a time to clean out the clutter. House clutter and brain clutter. Doesn't it feel good to take that tree down, and in our case, burn it? Put all of the decorations, that were fun on December 1st but look tired on December 26th , back in the attic until next year. I love how clean my house looks right now. I also take some time to reflect and see what I can do better. Where can I improve? Not a measurable goal, I know. I don't need those right now. Just need to know that I am doing better, trying harder, and that is enough for me.
7. So if I had to say what new thing I want to strive for this year is, it would be to chase after God. Reading His word. Memorizing it. More prayer. More of Him and less of me. To not wait until I have to cry out to Him but keep walking beside Him every day.
10. Emory got an early Christmas present this year. She went to ride horses for a few hours the week before and I think she is in love.