Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Ten on Tuesday
2. So, I had the best Labor Day. I went to the movies by myself and saw the last Harry Potter. I am a huge fan of the Harry Potter books. My name was always the first one on the library hold list and as soon as I got the book in my hands I blocked out life for a few days and did nothing but read. (I tend to be obsessive about things.) I actually called Jason's mom and asked her to watch the kids so I could finish the last book and return to my actual life. I have not been into the movies as much but I knew I wanted to see the last one at the theatre and I am so glad I did. It was awesome. I did whisper to a little girl to shut up but it was totally justified. She was seeing a different movie and came to "visit" her sister who was sitting behind me. She was talking and talking during a very important and quiet scene so I shhhh'd and snapped my finger at her. Kept talking. I shhhh'd again and still more talking. So I quietly, but sternly, whispered SHUT UP. No more talking. Look, little girl, I paid $11 to see this IMAX movie and I want to hear every word Harry Potter and Dumbledore have to say. (I did know that no adult was sitting with them before I took matters to this level.)
3. When I got home from the movies, I made some gumbo. Sausage and chicken, no okra. We had a family come over and they brought homemade pizza for the kids. I love having people in our home. Jason has to have a gentle nudge to have people over. He likes it once they are here, but the anticipation makes him a bit squirrely. (Squirrely is a word I use often.)
4. I really missed Betsy and the girls the other day. It's hard to adjust to life without seeing them every day. When she is struggling it makes it even harder. With a first grader, a three year old (oh Josie), and a crawling 6 month old in the city, she can have some stressful days. Today she bought a washer, dryer, and an ice maker. I could not be more excited for her. She will no longer have to drag everyone down two different elevators to get to the basement where the laundry room is, only to discover all of the dryers are broken. Yea Betsy!
5. Jay just found a tick in his belly button. Gross. Country living at its finest. He found it because he was doing his homework shirtless. Always without a shirt.
6. Today I got a makeover. I went to the mall without make up and let the professional show me the latest look. I was having an ugly day. All girls have them. I just needed a change and I wanted some make up to make me feel better. After the makeover I came home to surprise Jason with my new look. He said he liked my old look. He wasn't being mean. Jason has never been a big make up guy (he always hated prom hair and make up). So, my plan is to take it all back (after the lady who did my makeover gets off work) and maybe just try some new lip gloss. The thrill is gone.
7. My mom always said yes. I always said no. Now, I know there is a balance. I said yes to one thing and no to another at my church this week. It's OK to say no. Did you know that? God has called me to some things and not to do other things. If I try to do things he has not called me to do, just because I feel like I should say yes to anything "good", then I will be exhausted and resentful. We all have different gifts. Going outside of my gifts is a strain on me and my family.
8. The light that shines the farthest, shines the brightest at home. Isn't that beautiful? This is one of my Pastor's favorite quotes. It reminds me when I am deciding about an activity that my main mission is my home. If I could draw a concentric circle graph right now it would have God in the middle, then spouse and family, then church, and THEN the other stuff. When I have the light shining bright at home it spreads out from my family and into the world.
9. Some people I know went to jail last week. Their addiction led them to stealing which led them to jail. People in 12 step meetings often talk about hitting their bottom and how remembering it helps them to stay sober. I think this is very true but I also know you can find a lower bottom if you want to. In the book, Alcoholics Anonymous, it tells a story where someone is questioning their bottom and the answer is "You hit bottom when you stop digging." My bottom was lots of things but the hardest part was becoming so emotionally numb that I could not love my children. I never went to jail, got a DUI, or stole anything (actually, I did steal but that is another story) but I could always find a lower bottom if I started digging again.
10. The last pool day.