1. A new school year totally trumps a new calendar year at my house. I totally operate on a school calendar, so for me, last Tuesday was New Year's Eve. I love the feeling of everyone getting back into routines. Summer is great but when it's time to go back,
2. One of my goals for this year was to continue (Betsy did this with the kids at Tybee) to read The Gospel Story Bible for a morning devotion. I did it one morning, got frustrated that no one was listening, slammed the book down and told my kids "I give up on y'all." That is so gospel of me isn't it? The gospel, where Jesus takes all of my sin on himself, and dies a death I deserve so that I can have eternal life. But I tell my kids I'm giving up on them. Ouch. I did go back and apologize to them. I did tell them that I would never give up on them. But I also told them that God never gives up on his children and how thankful I am for that. Even when we think we want Him to give up on us He won't. (And for those of you who understand how it feels to actually want God to turn you loose and then have Him redeem the mess that you have made of yourself, are you with me in praising His holy name? Every single day.)
3. I can sometimes be overwhelmed at the start of the new school year. This article really inspired me to make good decisions for me and my family. That doesn't just mean cutting out the junk and the time wasters. This means really thinking about where I am putting my energy. If I have a goal to help other addicts, but I'm so busy that I'm not going to 12 step meetings or have any time to spend talking with people, then something has to go. I think this sometimes is hard when it comes to church. If I am active in my Sunday School, participating in a small group, attending Bible study on Wednesday night, in addition to Sunday worship and my quiet time in the morning, then I probably don't need to join another study just because they are offering one. Now that is just what is best for me. Everyone has to decide where God is calling them to serve and be used.
I'm Done Living a WalMart Life.
4. Speaking of the junk, I was a 90210 junkie in high school. I loved it had a serious crush on Dylan McKay. (Both Jay and Emory have scars on their eyebrows and I call them their Dylan McKay scars.)
5. So we are still reading Harry Potter. (YES!) We finished the first two books and watched the first two movies. I could have hired a marching band to parade up and down my driveway when Jay, my non-reader, said, "Mom, I liked the movie but the book was better." (YES!) The book is always better. And just to put a cherry on top, Jay is reading....because he wants to. It makes my heart smile when I see him bring his book with him to the table to eat lunch.
6. So You Think You Can Dance has really bummed me out this year. They have been only given one night a week (instead of two like previous years) and the new format stinks. Betsy is in Connecticut with no TV and although Jason was watching with me I had a frustration that I needed to share. Enter social media. I have 10 tweets under my handle. There are 4 retweets, 2 tweets that Packy (?) sent, and 4 that I actually sent. Three are about SYTYCD. I needed to connect with other people who were frustrated and Twitter did that for me. I embrace that we live in an instant society and sometimes I like it. (That might not mean anything to you. Especially you Dad.)
7. Packy and his bestest friend are in class together this year and it makes me so happy. Packy loves kindergarten and has the biggest smile on his face when I pick him up. He has an amazing teacher who also taught Jay kindergarten (at a different school). She reminded me that Packy was born when Jay was in her class. So happy to have our sweet school and sweet friends.
9. A lot can happen in one month. I didn't go to any 12 step meetings so I was really ready when I came home to get back into some good habits. (I usually do go and I should have gone this year.) When I got back I found out that a couple of people I knew had relapsed. People who had years of sobriety. It was a huge wake up call. I had gotten to place where I had taken my sobriety for granted because I don't crave using anymore. This is scary for an addict. If I am relying on myself and have an attitude of "I've got this!" then I am not in recovery. I might still be sober, but I am not in recovery. This attitude also leads to pride and looking down on others who are still struggling to get sober. I have to remind myself that if I start using and drinking again, I could end up just as bad off as the person I am looking down on. Just because I have a nice clean house and kids dressed in private school uniforms doesn't protect me from complete self-destruction. Working with people who are trying to get sober can be frustrating and sad, as well as extremely fufilling, but it always reminds me that staying sober is alot easier than getting sober.
10. Since I posted Jason's 90210 picture, I should tell you that we celebrated our 20th high-school reunion the night after I got back from Tybee. It was so fun to see so many of the people that we graduated with. I would say for the most part that people are happier 20 years after high school than they were when they were in it. I know I am. I wouldn't go back to high school for anything. Some of my insecutities crept back in a little, and I realized I am better in a small group than in a big crowd. Enter the smoking section. No wonder I like the smoking section. It's a smaller crowd where I can actually hear what people are saying (versus inside the party where the music is pumping). I tried to get Jason to agree that we should smoke for high school times sake. He said no. Always the voice of reason, that Jason. So, we just hung out with our friends who are still smoking and enjoyed some second hand smoke. (We have been nicotine free for 3 years.) (I still miss smoking.) (Yes, I know it's gross.)