Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Ten on Tuesday
2. I don't trust men who wear cologne. Tybee is full of sketchy, too much cologne for the beach, jean short wearing men.
4. Jellyfish- 1 Payton- 0 Sharks teeth count: Payton- 5 Paul- 4 (but his were much bigger in size)
This verse is listed as the chief request of our church each week. Requesting that we would know how much Christ loves us. To be honest, this has been really hard for me. As I try to think about how high, wide, long, and deep Christ's love is for me it makes my brain hurt. It's too big. How can he love me like that? How can he know everything I have ever done or ever thought and still love me like that? So then I think, it's nothing I have done that allows him to love me in that big way. It's only because of the death of his son that he can love me and see me as someone precious. But then that turns my brain too because how could Jesus die for me? I took Jay and Josie to the beach the other night and we talked about the sand. God knows how many grains of sand are on the Tybee Island beach. He knows exactly what is in the ocean that stretches out so far that you can't see anything else on the horizon. He is so big and yet so intimate. I can only meditate on that for a short period of time and then I thank God that I don't have to understand it to believe it.
8. Last week I started to edit my blogger profile. Trying to condense who I am in a short paragraph sends me into some serious reflection. I was bored with what it said before and didn't feel like it accurately said what I would want someone visiting my blog to know about me. I hate to ask the rhetorical "Who am I?" question but who I am has changed since I last updated that profile a couple of years ago. I am still a wife, still a mom, still an addict in recovery, but how do they all relate together? I think the way they all relate to each other now is that my relationship with Christ is involved in all of them. I used to have different compartments of who I was and being a Christian was just one of the compartments. I wanted God's help in some areas, but I wanted him to let me have a few areas to handle on my own. If I had to tell you right now what the "silver lining" of my addiction was I would say that God used it to bring me to my knees in order for me to give him my life. All of my life, not just the parts I was willing to give him. (And I do see my addiction as a blessing, not a burden.) So now as I think about my profile, I see my life with a few labels and Christ stamped across all of them.
9. I love seeing the different relationships between the six cousins. Everyone rotates who they play with. Emory is very much into babysitting Lolly. Packy and Josie play great together (most of the time). Jay is a little lost when the men leave but will be happy to ride his bike with someone who is pulling non bike riders. Jay and Josie can sometimes be a good mix as the two that put more thought in to life instead of being carefree. Emory and Hattie could play all day, every day. It's always changing.